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30 Things hard about having AS survey
#157845 10/04/09 02:52 PM
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1: Having people honestly believe you are in pain. Doctors don't believe you half the time so it is hard to make family and friends believe you.

2: The fact that it takes years to be diagnosed. I suffered for 32 yrs before being told what was wrong with me. I had gone to over 70 specialist before stumbling accross my diagnoses.

3: Knowing that once the damage of being fused is done there is no going back or fixing it.

4: The hardest thing actually for me is the uncaring attitude of most of the doctors i have seen.

5: Dealing sometimes with the guilt of watching the doctor I have now who is close to my age struggle with the fact he is never going to fix me. After much honest discussion i simply told him. I am not looking to be fixed. I am looking for a doctor who is honest with me, shows me compassion and allows me to be educated in my own health care and realize it is my life to live and my pain to handle.

6: The thoughtless and uncaring remarks made by friends and family.

7: The lack of concern because you don't look sick.

8: The guilt that it brings on for not being able to carry your share of the load, and having to depend on help.

9: The struggles of finding the medicines that work for you

10: Remembering that your neck or back doesn't bend or move at all.

11: Remembering you have trouble swallowing and then dealing with the pain for having to chew food so long

12: Not playing the what IF game. The word If should not even exist.
It either is or it isn't It either happened or it didn't

13: Controlling the rage and bitterness that some times builds inside of me

14: Remember to be thankful for what i have been blessed with in the past, present and future.

15: That i am a person with Ankylosing Spondylitis .... not that i am Ankylosing Spondylitis

16: That even the research questions on our disease doesn't honestly fit our disease. This disease is not a yes or no or it is or isn't disease . The questions should be designed to fit each disease.

17: Getting acceptance from yourself, doctor, family, friends and the public

18: Struggling with simple things such as picking something up off the floor, clipping your toe nails, reading a book, so many simple things become a struggle

19: Not knowing the future but i remind myself healthy or not no one knows their future.

20: Never being able to loose that brave front....

21: Learning to live with severe pain even when you feel good and having good days

22: Knowing the research and the cure will more than likely not benefit you at all

23: Knowing there is a possiblity that someone you love and want to protect may be in your shoes one day.

24: Taking ambien every night not because i can't sleep but because it is too painful to lay down

25: Surgeries, physical therapy. Doctors you see sometimes more than family

26: Not being able to take away the pain of the people who share your disease and you have come to care for them

27: Forgiving your self for being human Thank you Spryder for giving me that gift!

28: To learn how to spell it and say it correctly.

29: That your own body is attacking it self

30: Being able to touch or be touched in human closeness with out pain. Simple hugs hurt


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Re: 30 Things hard about having AS survey
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sorry you are having such a hard time with the disease, cookie, but at least you are trying to look on the bright side.

peace, s.

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Thank you peace to you dear lady


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LilMsCookie #158071 10/06/09 11:16 PM
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Very well stated!

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Bookreader66 #158075 10/07/09 12:01 AM
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Thank you!


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LilMsCookie #158756 10/13/09 07:31 PM
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Thank you for sharing this cookie! My feelings exactly and it's so nice to come on here from time to time and remember I am not alone and others feel the same way I do.

Take care,
Kris

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norskegirl74 #158765 10/13/09 09:01 PM
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Thank you sweetie


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LilMsCookie #158835 10/14/09 02:19 PM
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Well said Cookie, I agree completely.


"I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell".....Matchbox 20

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