Hello, my very first post anywhere.. but i understand what your saying.. I was in a wheel chair year 8 high school for a term because i couldn't walk or handle any pressure on my joints it was hard.. I'm now 37 but still remember those nights out on the town watching my friends dance and try to pull my around only to cause chronic pain i tried to hide it from everyone because i wanted to be 'normal'. I find it comes and goes to a point you can manage it as does the depression that seems to follow.. anytime you need to chat let me know i'd be happy to help if i can.