I put myself in a panic again by looking at videos of people with severe disease on YouTube. At this point it’s just self-torture for no reason. I mean by now I know what can happen with severe disease so what do I expect to find?

I’ve come to the conclusion that any research online about AS is counterproductive. It’s a chronic disease so I’ll never find anything positive. I’ll never find anything reassuring. It’s all depressing stuff.

I have to constantly remind myself that most people with AS these days don’t end up with deformity and extensive damage because of the progress made with treatments.

I really have to stop looking up stuff online...