I had a magic thought that somehow Enbrel would work at full capacity for decades and that maybe my disease would never progress again.

In hindsight it was just denial and I have a lot of work to do to accept the fact that AS is degenerative, chronic and unpredictable.

Switching and adding meds is not something I can avoid and I have to learn not to panic when one medication stops working.

If my blood test isn’t OK I hope I’ll find helpful treatment soon.