Let's just say that having a certain level of back pain is becoming my new normal. I'm getting used to it although obviously I'd rather be well. My anxiety and depression have lowered. Past three days I've felt near-normal. Today is a bit tougher but not too bad.

I have a rheumy appointment June 26 so I'll adress my concerns with her. If my blood tests are normal again and my range of motion is still OK then frankly I don't think I can convince her to modify my treatment so I'll just deal with this new pain.

My main concern is fusion but I can't predict this based on pain or anything so if it happens then whatever. I just can't afford to spend my life being scared of my disease progressing. It's a waste of emotional energy.

I'm still hoping it's just a big flare and that things will settle down.

Take care.